just a reflection

aint no place for us

2009-09-29T06:58:59Z

I love his big ego ;)

2009-08-09T20:31:12Z

temple nightclub, sf

yelp:

2009-07-25T05:29:36Z

Jillybean.yelp.com

I'm such a foodie. I've been so into yelping, it helps that I've got the iphone application.

Does anybody else Yelp? Add me.

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prettysoftvoice @ 2009-06-29T22:38:00

2009-06-30T05:55:21Z

Sunset in the Mission.

Painted ladies in Alamo Square.

My boyfriend said this blog is depressing and I should be less of an emotional rollercoaster.
He is so right, I get so wrapped up in the moment not remember all the great things abut my wonderful life.
I've had two parents who loved me to death, grown up in a nice town, lived in two amazing cities on my own, have done so much in my twenty two years on earth. I love my friends, I love my family so much. I just got a little homesick but reliving all my wonderful moments here makes me so grateful and appreciative of being so lucky.

So I wanna make a list of my favorite meals back home.

Here it goes my 5 favorite meals:

5. Macaroni and cheese labeled by some as the "Best in the West," melt-in-your-mouth pot roast and Home's killer banana bread pudding for dessert.

Home
2100 Market Street
San Francisco, CA

4. Pitchers of Sangria. Small tapas style dining, so amazing. Sea food, cuban sandwiches, quesdillas, everything here is so yummmmy!

Cha Cha Cha
2327 Mission Street
San Francisco, CA

3. Traditonal American breakfast, in the heart of the sunset district. The best hash browns I've ever had, french toast with a sliced banana in the center, tons of breakfast meats. The ultimate hungover cure.

Art's Cafe
747 Irving Street
San Francisco, CA

2. Words cannot begin to describe.

Genki Crepes
330 Clement Street
San Francisco, CA

1. Taqueria Cancun is one of the best places in San Francisco to get a vegetarian burrito. It was muy fantastico! &&&& their super nachos are to die for!

Taqueria Cancun
3211 Mission Street
San Francisco, CA

prettysoftvoice @ 2009-05-07T16:33:00

2009-05-07T23:38:04Z

I am moving to Las Vegas.

prettysoftvoice @ 2009-04-03T18:37:00

2009-04-04T01:39:00Z

i am just now sitting down to get ready for my birthday shindig tonight...
my outfit is to dead for!

my dress only one tier.

sweeeeeeet handbag.

edit:

also got a ton of accessories from marciano.

the paparazzi camera is a MUST tonight @ XS,

22 is looking bright.

how funny!

2009-03-19T02:01:01Z

16 yr old jill & 21 yr old jill.

back and forth

2009-03-12T18:05:05Z

so with dignity and grace
well you have to erase
all the things in your mind that replay
and replay and replay and replay and replay.
the things that made you cry.
that you forgave; you let go by
you will push the one that you love
out of your life, out of your life. out of.

and there was always something she had to plan.
she's always looking down at her left hand.
& she was always in between
her life and her childhood dream.
and there was always something he had to mend.
you give a rule your given something to bend
and he was always in between
his word and what his word means

& the weight of what's heard
is what we don't understand.

prettysoftvoice @ 2009-03-06T15:47:00

2009-03-06T23:47:36Z

I don't know why something this good has happened to me.

I had forgotten what it felt like to feel it and have it happen all at the same time.

Never this soon.

Never this easy.

All of this could flip upside down at any second

But I'm ready for anything at this point.

Here's my heart, I hope you break it.

If you have the power to break it that means you had the power to reach it.

So break it, see if I care.

prettysoftvoice @ 2009-03-03T05:07:00

2009-03-03T13:08:26Z

fluid ultra lounge, sf.

if it doesn't kill me it will make me stronger

2009-02-24T11:48:58Z

i go in waves, hating you -- missing you -- trying to forget about you.

every time i wanna write you i tell myself no, you were clear about the fact you needed space.
i just think about our bbq's, the office marathons, all our hypes we went on together, driving hours to kiss you, hitting cuts, the first time i laid eyes on you, i haven't felt the same about anyone else... i wonder if i ever will, all the little things i miss about us hurt me most. i try to recall how much you killed me sometimes, the fights and tears, up and downs, finally leaving town.

how strong i need to be right now...keep going, i am so close to getting past it but so far away.

prettysoftvoice @ 2009-02-21T18:12:00

2009-02-22T02:13:00Z

falling asleep half open eyes i wanna see the lights of san francisco at night.

prettysoftvoice @ 2009-02-14T15:29:00

2009-02-14T23:37:44Z

i've never had a better valentine's day, sometimes it takes slipping and falling on your way up to really cherish the view from on top. i feel strong, strong that i don't ever have to settle on a abusive relationship or someone who doesn't appreciate how amazing i am. i look in the mirror and i truly see clearly why things failed. i know that you cannot go back to rewind mistakes because living is learning. i look forward to find pure love, not dirty love. my friends are beautiful, my outlook is stellar. i can't say i don't have a rough day/night time and again but that's when i feel like i find myself most. life is crazy beautiful that way. i'll leave you with a mental note crystal and i in bed resting up for dinner of italian food and lots of blue moons with her law school friends.

MMM!

the little things

2009-02-10T08:23:53Z

i can clear out your pictures, letters, any trances of you that i could think of but the only part of you i can't erase is in my mind. the littlest things set me off. i guess everything started out with the dream i had of you last night. we were with some friends at the grocery store, i kept trying to make you understand why things happened and how it was like i was watching us from the outside. after a minute or two you finally looked over at me, you wrapped your arms around me and said you forgave me. that after everything we went through together you could get over it and be at peace with me. then we walked outside of the grocery store into my car, started to drive out got stopped by some thug guys and car jacked for everything you got me, the bag, the camera.
i can't describe how it made me feel, i was sad but i was so happy to finally closed the chapter between you and i. it meant nothing. i just got a really bad feeling when i woke up, i wondered if you were okay. i just have this gut feeling even now that if something isn't going right. i'll know. so, i go to your myspace page which is sad because thats the only way i know whats going on with you. i don't know how to feel right now, i'm just still heartbroken because i loved you so damn much. that's part of the reason losing you felt horrible. you become what a real family was supposed to feel like, i tried to fit in somehow though i never did. you were the only one who got me, when i would sit in the closet when we fought or pretend i was leaving for good. those memories are some i'll cherish because some people don't ever get to feel love like that. i did.

prettysoftvoice @ 2008-12-30T14:42:00

2008-12-30T22:43:04Z

i am headed to tahoe with my beezys.

woo hoo!
enough don julio and champange to sink my car

prettysoftvoice @ 2008-12-28T22:35:00

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prettysoftvoice @ 2008-12-11T02:17:00

2008-12-11T10:19:33Z

these were taken at an event we promoted for work at harlot niteclub in sf.
http://www.harlotsf.com/

one of the perks.

prettysoftvoice @ 2008-12-09T13:25:00

2008-12-09T21:25:35Z

i don't know how we got this way, or how to get us out.

holidays are coming! that's wild

2008-11-23T21:42:56Z

warriors game last friday night vs. the bulls. had two hundred dollar a seat tickets and sat near mr. fab the rapper. they lost but i saw the guy who comes into my work to tan. he is the center, the russian guy.

i didn't pay for the majority of my recent gifts. eric is really trying to help me feel better ... i know things have improved.
i won a sales prize at work for the most clients to pre-book their next appointment with me, so i got the ipod touch.

i have a new shopping vice: BOOTS, i live in san francisco there is a need for boots all the time. so i just bought five new pairs and this style i got the creme and blue.

this style brown.

tabacco colored which is the medium brown.

eric bought this camera along with two lenses, to cheer me up because he knows how much i love taking pictures and have wanted this camera for so lonnnnnnnnnnng.

my new gucci stunners are delicious!

how i got this bag is truly incredible, i walked into the LV store and had no idea which one i wanted but i knew i was getting something.eric said i could spend 700$ on a purse and 500$ on a wallet that budget was not so realistic. i saw this bag and literally started watering up it is amazing and beautiful unlike most of there purse which i dont love. i get so many compliments on it, from everyone but my mom who think's it's INSANE to spend 1300 on a purse and 700 on a wallet. i can't believe how much eric cares about me, for no reason just decide to spend 2,000 on me. i am so lucky...

this is my new phone, i needed it badly.
my life is unreal right now, i found out i passed my state board test. my future is lookin' better and better.

prettysoftvoice @ 2008-11-17T14:52:00

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prettysoftvoice @ 2008-09-23T00:55:00

2008-09-23T08:04:17Z

the treasure island festival

the highlights:
sitting on california's largest ferris wheel as the sun was setting with one of my best friend's tania smith, we just sat there looking at the downtown view and the water surrounding us. i mumbled something about us never being able to get this same moment back. we are young, beautiful, and so happy. we starting talking about how in love we are but that really doesn't matter right now.
dancing to tegan and sarah's walking with a ghost screaming every lyric dripping with sweat and holding up my cellphone so my boyfriend could hear every word of this amazing moment i was experiencing.
getting everything for free...t-shirts, beer, and photo booth pictures (tons of them)

prettysoftvoice @ 2008-07-29T18:49:00

2008-07-30T01:51:35Z

my shoot

2008-07-21T06:46:41Z

I styled this shoot for my portfolio, what do you think of my work?